Haiz.. feeling sick again. went toilet a few times. Feel like vomitting like that. Hope i didn't get infected with that gastric flu virus thingy.
Feeling drained mentally also, cause of the work. Plus didn't get enuff sleep and things abit rocky. So totally sick.
Wish sometimes God could just take me away now. End the suffering and all. Sometimes wish to just throw everything away and go risk it all and do something different.
But i know i'm not young already. I can't just afford to just quit things. If things do not work out, I will be one of those miserable old unmarried ladies who live a miserable pathetic life.
Guess you can tell i'm feeling really down. Life seems miersable. Time seems to pass so slowly.
Of course, james have a little to do with this as well. Once again, he is uncontactable during his off day. Not the first, won't be the last. He didn't even tell me he's off yesterday. I'm tired of this liao lah.
Saturday, October 21, 2006
Tuesday, October 10, 2006
Hybernation Mode
Just occured to me recently that i've been in "hybernation mode". What? You would probably ask. Well animals go to sleep in the winter so survive the super cold water. They are unconscious during this period of time. I'm like them in that way. I've been drifting about recently. Why leh? My baby went overseas again lor. I'm like waiting for spring to arrive (his arrival in sg) so that i can spring back to life again! chim right? dunnoe why suddenly linked the way i am now to that lor.
He's in Taiwan again. This time kenna "dua" by jap boss. Arrived in Taipei then kenna asked to go Tainan to work. Later on, Tainan factory says he cannot work without a permit(which will only be ready in abt 4 working days). So since he cannot do nothing, he was sent back to Taipei again. The poor thing. Packing and unpacking so many times.
Something different about his trip for me this time is that i do not feel as "gan cheong" as before lor. Maybe my walk with Christ has changed me a little. Or that his "proposal" assured me. Either way i'm amazed at the difference this time round. You don't hear me complaining about him. No more quarrels or arrguement this time. Think must be the work of God.
Got some bad news from work lately. I've got a 'failing' grade finally. Not really fail but just making it. My bosses talked to me about it. Well, can you believe it? i was actually very calm about it! I'm surprised i didn't have any outburst or do anything extreme. Well, i actually did consider it after i absorbed the news but didn't go out and confront my boss lor. Anyway, i just accepted it. I was able to think clearly enough to handle the bad news.
What's even more amazing is that i actually was about to go about my work as if nothing happened! WOW. Given the old me, i would ****ed my bosses and already quit my job liao. Also, will be very rebellious to cause trouble at work and bitch about it non-stop. Making things really ugly. For this alone, i can't thank God enough. Thank God i didn't do any stupid things.
Now, i've been actually been wanting to blog but somehow had no inspiration. However, after attending the Growth seminiar at Risen Christ, I'm want very much to share with everyone. I've also "accidentally" volunteered my service to help them out! haha.. Just a small role, that is to make and scroll the powerpoint slides for the mass on the 1st monday of the month. For now, i'm the OHP operator. hehe.. Show the lyrics OHT lor. Can't wait to meet them tomorrow for a run-through!
Must share another shocker with you. Or should i say it is a shock to me lah. Shirley and Bruce are getting married! Wah! Seems like yesterday i was fetching shirley back and asking her if she's officially dating Bruce and now wah getting married! Somemore earlier than Toni's! haha.. Of course, i must congratulate her lah. God works in mysterious way indeed. Shirley is a good example. Regardless of whichever religion it is, we're all worshipping the same almighty! Allelluia!
He's in Taiwan again. This time kenna "dua" by jap boss. Arrived in Taipei then kenna asked to go Tainan to work. Later on, Tainan factory says he cannot work without a permit(which will only be ready in abt 4 working days). So since he cannot do nothing, he was sent back to Taipei again. The poor thing. Packing and unpacking so many times.
Something different about his trip for me this time is that i do not feel as "gan cheong" as before lor. Maybe my walk with Christ has changed me a little. Or that his "proposal" assured me. Either way i'm amazed at the difference this time round. You don't hear me complaining about him. No more quarrels or arrguement this time. Think must be the work of God.
Got some bad news from work lately. I've got a 'failing' grade finally. Not really fail but just making it. My bosses talked to me about it. Well, can you believe it? i was actually very calm about it! I'm surprised i didn't have any outburst or do anything extreme. Well, i actually did consider it after i absorbed the news but didn't go out and confront my boss lor. Anyway, i just accepted it. I was able to think clearly enough to handle the bad news.
What's even more amazing is that i actually was about to go about my work as if nothing happened! WOW. Given the old me, i would ****ed my bosses and already quit my job liao. Also, will be very rebellious to cause trouble at work and bitch about it non-stop. Making things really ugly. For this alone, i can't thank God enough. Thank God i didn't do any stupid things.
Now, i've been actually been wanting to blog but somehow had no inspiration. However, after attending the Growth seminiar at Risen Christ, I'm want very much to share with everyone. I've also "accidentally" volunteered my service to help them out! haha.. Just a small role, that is to make and scroll the powerpoint slides for the mass on the 1st monday of the month. For now, i'm the OHP operator. hehe.. Show the lyrics OHT lor. Can't wait to meet them tomorrow for a run-through!
Must share another shocker with you. Or should i say it is a shock to me lah. Shirley and Bruce are getting married! Wah! Seems like yesterday i was fetching shirley back and asking her if she's officially dating Bruce and now wah getting married! Somemore earlier than Toni's! haha.. Of course, i must congratulate her lah. God works in mysterious way indeed. Shirley is a good example. Regardless of whichever religion it is, we're all worshipping the same almighty! Allelluia!