Restless...again

I've finally had a good long sleep last night. Didn't sleep a lot the past week. However, it's left me even more tired. Thought i had energy, went ikea with my mum to buy the shoe cabinet. Was so crowded! The queues for parking and makan and payment are so long! haiz.. amazing how i survived. but then couldn't tahan when i went with her to watch my uncle at the karoke competition at Kampong Ubi CC (he's no 46 & it was only no 12 when i left!). All i wanted to do was to sleep. So i abandon my mum and came home. Luckily my dad working full day tdy, so he's gonna fetch her later. But the cabinet is so heavier i left it in the car. Later still have to go down help my dad carry it up coz he said he one person cannot..hm...

My current schedule: (hee..it's more for my own reference)
M -- LISS (Risen Christ)
T -- Home tuition
-- Jogging
W -- RCIA (SFX)
T -- Badminton
F -- tuition
-- Jogging
S -- Home tuition
-- Swimming
-- Shopping with Mum
-- Mass (Star of the Sea)
-- Hangout with dor
S -- Home Tuition
-- Shopping with Mum
-- Jogging

Very restless coz everytime dun go church or hear inspirating stories i will start down the road of depression. Also if i dun workout my extra energy hor, i also restless.. so diedie later must go run. haiz.. but now still so bright can't do it yet. Wish i can swim but i know the pool will be crowded.. haiz.. now sleep first then say lah..

My baby is coming back very, very very soon hehe.. dun tell u when.. with the next week though.. haiz.. not really excited this time so unlike the last few times he's been overseas working. & this won't be the last working trip either.. already know that he will be going japan soon. then maybe even taiwan again if the japan project is not going to happen soon in singapore. Well, confused as usual. Expected alot out of him, which maybe be alot. Thus, he can't live up to my expectation. But things may just go back to normal when he's back or not. Well, dunnoe yet.

Anyway, will be going to travel with him within a month. Just to relax lah. Haiz.. but still not sure about us being together. Whether we're that compatible. Coz i've just heard story about my aunty. The same one i mentioned the last time about the serious case. Well, my aunty has left home & it seems quite serious. Divorce is a great, big possibility. Everyone in my extended family is so concern about it now. Maybe more of gossiping lah. But still it's affected me lor.

My aunt is a very 'kuai lan' person like me lah. Very nagging always complaining. My uncle complained that he has tahan her for more than 20 years liao.. (he's not that great lah, have affairs somemore).. but everyone said that it's because of her attitude plus her constant brickering with her daughter that has pushed him away in the first place. He told my grandma that everyday b4 7am, she will complain non-stop til he's out of the house. So it's no wonder lah. But then it hit me lah. If i'm like that hor, how? die lah.. maybe we're not so compatible lor.

Then i see all the relationship in my family.. all the uncles very take care of their wives one. Wives also very take care of husband. Only those with complainy & problematic wives are in trouble. Haiz.. i dun wish to be one. But it's the way i am. How? Only way i guess is to change myself. But i can't see myself in a relationship whereby i always have to suffer to give in to my hubby's whims lor. Well, looking at it the other way, i guess no guy will want to do that for me too.

So haiz.. have to think very carefully, or start to change soon. Think positive, think positive..!!!