aiyo.. very tired now.. wanna sleep..but so many things to do today.. now got a bit of time..feel like blogging leh..especially after reading wen & xm blog.. inspired haha.. no lah just sian lah.. wanna vent it out here.. tell someone..
well.. baptism of the holy spirit in LISS ..didnt get rested or got any gifts.. abit disappointed..but then it will come later i believe.. had this tuff decision to make coz my RCIA & LISS falls on the same day.. plus both parties insisted on me on going on each side.. more so of the RCIA coordinator lah.. haiz.. finally decided to follow my heart (by God i believe) to go LISS.. but was kinda stress lah.. hee.. Rite of acceptance went well..was so joyful and excited that day.. (last sunday lah).. hehe..
Just arrange with my friend to allow uncle to come my workplace for a mini-roadshow (uncle's term for it) .. but then hor they have to arrange the date and time lah..not yet.. my friend happen to be on MC yest then i answer her phones calls (alot lah ringing away..) then hor i asked this person what was the call about..said mini-roadshow..then hor i paused and wah voice v familiar.."uncle????" haha.. "auntie!!??" haha.. so farney hor.. then hor so 'qiao' yesterday after that.. he saw james hor.. haha.. he was in marine parade to meet an artist for designing his things lah.. wah.. so surprised coz he doesn't noe where's uncle's stall..then hor i found out.. he knows it's somewhere there..but happen to walk pass and see so say hi lor
things been well between us.. well some quarrels.. but he doesn't give up so easily lah.. actually went late to work coz wanted to work things out between us.. hehe.. so touched ah.. so sayang me.. then hor...now found out becoz of his reservist hor.. he doesn't need to travel for the next 2 months yipee!! hehe.. good news indeed..
Now whenever i worry about how things will go, i just have to remember this verse i read.. in my own words lah.. this story about jesus and his disciples on a boat then the sea was so stormy and sky all chaos.. his disciples panicked and tot they gonna die.. but then Jesus just relax lah.. then he finally just told the sky & sea to be calm and they did.. wow..this story always comes to mind when i worry or get 'gan cheogn' haha... coz i just have to noe he will take care of things for me.. no need to ask for help. he just will.. :) jus like my oral duties hehe.. :)
Thursday, August 17, 2006
Sunday, August 06, 2006
Pending End of Contentment
my baby has been back for almost 2 weeks liao. Paiseh been busy with my own schedule plus now spending all my other available time with him thus no chance to login or blog til now.
Things been pretty much back to normal. There are times though when i had to reconsider our relationship coz of certain actions of his. I don't know, maybe you can tell me if i'm too 'niao' hor. He was driving us in Geylang trying to find a lot to park so that we can makan with his cousins. then hor u noe lah saturday nite jam lah..he called his cousin (while driving) to ask how? coz maybe wanna change location hor.. then plus he stopped and hor blocking other cars behind. i saw a space where he could park just for a while to decide where to go. he ignored me hor! i repeated many times hor. he just ignored me hor! then ended up drive in circle. wah make me so angry. accident how? kenna TP how? aiyo.. let me drive lah..stop a while to let me take over or think lah.. haiz..
then recently at cineleisure hor, i found the shortest queue and lined up. he disappeared! i saw him turning corner to the cafe counter! wah lau.. i angry xiao..go there also never tell me. just disappear.. of coz me smart lah..went over lor. wahlua.. he always like that one.. like that not right, right? how can abandon gf like that one? wah make me feel like i can't trust him at all to look after me lor.
then hor why end of the good days leh? coz of his mum hor, he may have to shift out. so sian already lor! haiz..long story..
Things been pretty much back to normal. There are times though when i had to reconsider our relationship coz of certain actions of his. I don't know, maybe you can tell me if i'm too 'niao' hor. He was driving us in Geylang trying to find a lot to park so that we can makan with his cousins. then hor u noe lah saturday nite jam lah..he called his cousin (while driving) to ask how? coz maybe wanna change location hor.. then plus he stopped and hor blocking other cars behind. i saw a space where he could park just for a while to decide where to go. he ignored me hor! i repeated many times hor. he just ignored me hor! then ended up drive in circle. wah make me so angry. accident how? kenna TP how? aiyo.. let me drive lah..stop a while to let me take over or think lah.. haiz..
then recently at cineleisure hor, i found the shortest queue and lined up. he disappeared! i saw him turning corner to the cafe counter! wah lau.. i angry xiao..go there also never tell me. just disappear.. of coz me smart lah..went over lor. wahlua.. he always like that one.. like that not right, right? how can abandon gf like that one? wah make me feel like i can't trust him at all to look after me lor.
then hor why end of the good days leh? coz of his mum hor, he may have to shift out. so sian already lor! haiz..long story..
Sunday, July 23, 2006
Deferring SIM
I was disppointed to get my results from SIM. I've got a B+ when i expected at least an A. Well, maybe the last assignment wasn't counted or that i scored badly for my exam. Either or, i'm disappointed and has lost confidence. Coz if something which i was so confident about can only get me a B, then how to score for Mathematics which i'm not as good at?
Thus, I've decided to defer my studies til next year. Meanwhile decide if i want to continue lor. Actually not really decided lah. More of let God (thru' my credit card hee..) decide. The day b4 the payment deadline, i went to SIM to make payment. However i wasn't sure if i've had enuff inside to pay, plus i couldn't decided. So i said, if the payment goes thru', i will do my best to study it well. If not, then fine, i'm going to defer. So you can guess what happen lah.
It's good okay coz it gives my pocket time to recover. So right now, it's quite relaxing. Farney how when i study, the stress of earning money is there & now i'm not, the stress is not there liao. So i've came up with this solution. Save enough so that i won't have to worry about money when i study. Thus i'm going to apply for Government loan lah. It means i have to sign a bond of 2 years after i graduate. But fine lah since i'm 'old bird' in this industry liao. but not that smart a 'bird' though.. coz still step on ppl's toes all the time. hee...
Thus, I've decided to defer my studies til next year. Meanwhile decide if i want to continue lor. Actually not really decided lah. More of let God (thru' my credit card hee..) decide. The day b4 the payment deadline, i went to SIM to make payment. However i wasn't sure if i've had enuff inside to pay, plus i couldn't decided. So i said, if the payment goes thru', i will do my best to study it well. If not, then fine, i'm going to defer. So you can guess what happen lah.
It's good okay coz it gives my pocket time to recover. So right now, it's quite relaxing. Farney how when i study, the stress of earning money is there & now i'm not, the stress is not there liao. So i've came up with this solution. Save enough so that i won't have to worry about money when i study. Thus i'm going to apply for Government loan lah. It means i have to sign a bond of 2 years after i graduate. But fine lah since i'm 'old bird' in this industry liao. but not that smart a 'bird' though.. coz still step on ppl's toes all the time. hee...
Restless...again
I've finally had a good long sleep last night. Didn't sleep a lot the past week. However, it's left me even more tired. Thought i had energy, went ikea with my mum to buy the shoe cabinet. Was so crowded! The queues for parking and makan and payment are so long! haiz.. amazing how i survived. but then couldn't tahan when i went with her to watch my uncle at the karoke competition at Kampong Ubi CC (he's no 46 & it was only no 12 when i left!). All i wanted to do was to sleep. So i abandon my mum and came home. Luckily my dad working full day tdy, so he's gonna fetch her later. But the cabinet is so heavier i left it in the car. Later still have to go down help my dad carry it up coz he said he one person cannot..hm...
My current schedule: (hee..it's more for my own reference)
M -- LISS (Risen Christ)
T -- Home tuition
-- Jogging
W -- RCIA (SFX)
T -- Badminton
F -- tuition
-- Jogging
S -- Home tuition
-- Swimming
-- Shopping with Mum
-- Mass (Star of the Sea)
-- Hangout with dor
S -- Home Tuition
-- Shopping with Mum
-- Jogging
Very restless coz everytime dun go church or hear inspirating stories i will start down the road of depression. Also if i dun workout my extra energy hor, i also restless.. so diedie later must go run. haiz.. but now still so bright can't do it yet. Wish i can swim but i know the pool will be crowded.. haiz.. now sleep first then say lah..
My baby is coming back very, very very soon hehe.. dun tell u when.. with the next week though.. haiz.. not really excited this time so unlike the last few times he's been overseas working. & this won't be the last working trip either.. already know that he will be going japan soon. then maybe even taiwan again if the japan project is not going to happen soon in singapore. Well, confused as usual. Expected alot out of him, which maybe be alot. Thus, he can't live up to my expectation. But things may just go back to normal when he's back or not. Well, dunnoe yet.
Anyway, will be going to travel with him within a month. Just to relax lah. Haiz.. but still not sure about us being together. Whether we're that compatible. Coz i've just heard story about my aunty. The same one i mentioned the last time about the serious case. Well, my aunty has left home & it seems quite serious. Divorce is a great, big possibility. Everyone in my extended family is so concern about it now. Maybe more of gossiping lah. But still it's affected me lor.
My aunt is a very 'kuai lan' person like me lah. Very nagging always complaining. My uncle complained that he has tahan her for more than 20 years liao.. (he's not that great lah, have affairs somemore).. but everyone said that it's because of her attitude plus her constant brickering with her daughter that has pushed him away in the first place. He told my grandma that everyday b4 7am, she will complain non-stop til he's out of the house. So it's no wonder lah. But then it hit me lah. If i'm like that hor, how? die lah.. maybe we're not so compatible lor.
Then i see all the relationship in my family.. all the uncles very take care of their wives one. Wives also very take care of husband. Only those with complainy & problematic wives are in trouble. Haiz.. i dun wish to be one. But it's the way i am. How? Only way i guess is to change myself. But i can't see myself in a relationship whereby i always have to suffer to give in to my hubby's whims lor. Well, looking at it the other way, i guess no guy will want to do that for me too.
So haiz.. have to think very carefully, or start to change soon. Think positive, think positive..!!!
My current schedule: (hee..it's more for my own reference)
M -- LISS (Risen Christ)
T -- Home tuition
-- Jogging
W -- RCIA (SFX)
T -- Badminton
F -- tuition
-- Jogging
S -- Home tuition
-- Swimming
-- Shopping with Mum
-- Mass (Star of the Sea)
-- Hangout with dor
S -- Home Tuition
-- Shopping with Mum
-- Jogging
Very restless coz everytime dun go church or hear inspirating stories i will start down the road of depression. Also if i dun workout my extra energy hor, i also restless.. so diedie later must go run. haiz.. but now still so bright can't do it yet. Wish i can swim but i know the pool will be crowded.. haiz.. now sleep first then say lah..
My baby is coming back very, very very soon hehe.. dun tell u when.. with the next week though.. haiz.. not really excited this time so unlike the last few times he's been overseas working. & this won't be the last working trip either.. already know that he will be going japan soon. then maybe even taiwan again if the japan project is not going to happen soon in singapore. Well, confused as usual. Expected alot out of him, which maybe be alot. Thus, he can't live up to my expectation. But things may just go back to normal when he's back or not. Well, dunnoe yet.
Anyway, will be going to travel with him within a month. Just to relax lah. Haiz.. but still not sure about us being together. Whether we're that compatible. Coz i've just heard story about my aunty. The same one i mentioned the last time about the serious case. Well, my aunty has left home & it seems quite serious. Divorce is a great, big possibility. Everyone in my extended family is so concern about it now. Maybe more of gossiping lah. But still it's affected me lor.
My aunt is a very 'kuai lan' person like me lah. Very nagging always complaining. My uncle complained that he has tahan her for more than 20 years liao.. (he's not that great lah, have affairs somemore).. but everyone said that it's because of her attitude plus her constant brickering with her daughter that has pushed him away in the first place. He told my grandma that everyday b4 7am, she will complain non-stop til he's out of the house. So it's no wonder lah. But then it hit me lah. If i'm like that hor, how? die lah.. maybe we're not so compatible lor.
Then i see all the relationship in my family.. all the uncles very take care of their wives one. Wives also very take care of husband. Only those with complainy & problematic wives are in trouble. Haiz.. i dun wish to be one. But it's the way i am. How? Only way i guess is to change myself. But i can't see myself in a relationship whereby i always have to suffer to give in to my hubby's whims lor. Well, looking at it the other way, i guess no guy will want to do that for me too.
So haiz.. have to think very carefully, or start to change soon. Think positive, think positive..!!!
Friday, July 21, 2006
My 80th Post!!
heyheyhey! i'm so long-winded..got so many things to say one ah? now then i know xia..hehee..80th post leh! something to celebrate ah.. or may not ..wait til 100th one then..100th anniversary..but sorry ah.. no 100 gifts or giving things away at $1.00 hor..hehe.. too much influences from retail liao hhaa. but long time since i've had retail therapy (except for the anti-virus purchase lah)..
oh yah..why blog again leh? 3rd blog within 24hrs.. coz dunnoe why..read many blogs and suddenly inspired..but then suddenly forgotten what i wanted to say liao.. after i saw i'm writing my 80th blog hhaha..
btw.. incase u dunnoe..i've quit a certain something for about 2 & 1/2 weeks..but after the big misunderstanding with my baby i started again.. since then i've not been able to stop.. & this time i was so into quitting that i didnt' tell a single soul.. unless they ask lah..like dor was so surprised that i didnt' do that thru' out her grandma's wake...I felt freedom coz no need to hide from people (incase ppl recognise me mah).. but now back to normal again lor.. aiya.. old habits hard to change lah..
I'm attending RCIA class at SFX now.. i'm very keen this time.. unlike the last time i tried to finish it at IHM.. the class is small..the people are friendly..plus.. i entered thru' relations (my supervisor's) so.. hehe.. i'm at an advantage.. even though i've missed many lessons coz they've started back in May. Rite of acceptance 13 august. Should be baptised in April like the rest of the churches if things go well. This info is more for Catholic friends.
Oh yah now i remembered.. about my work hor.. dunnoe if you realised hor.. i've not been bitching about my work for sometime liao.. coz hor.. i've opened up my mind & heart.. see things thru' already.. infact..got a few incidents that would've pissed me off & hate a lot of people..but now surprisingly.. no feeling maybe because i've accepted that they're like that.. & i expected the results...
that day was the day i went for my haircut (7th July) haha.. first time so short in many years i think. shoulder length lah.. not so aunti liao lah.. then hairstylist very good hor.. knows how to layer & trim it til very nice hor.. i like my new fringe.. hehe.. but too bad dunnoe his name.. only noe he's at Jean Yip Bishan.. hor.. tall, golden hair.. (typically ah beng).. not very good looking but nice body hahah.. anyway.. mum said should go find out so..next time when i drop by bishan then i will do that lah..
then bishan has got a new building..looks like a library..but dunnoe if it is lah.. updated again..or if you know.. tell me lah!
okay..that's all for now.. :) May God bless all of you. Have a good weekend ahead!!!
oh yah..why blog again leh? 3rd blog within 24hrs.. coz dunnoe why..read many blogs and suddenly inspired..but then suddenly forgotten what i wanted to say liao.. after i saw i'm writing my 80th blog hhaha..
btw.. incase u dunnoe..i've quit a certain something for about 2 & 1/2 weeks..but after the big misunderstanding with my baby i started again.. since then i've not been able to stop.. & this time i was so into quitting that i didnt' tell a single soul.. unless they ask lah..like dor was so surprised that i didnt' do that thru' out her grandma's wake...I felt freedom coz no need to hide from people (incase ppl recognise me mah).. but now back to normal again lor.. aiya.. old habits hard to change lah..
I'm attending RCIA class at SFX now.. i'm very keen this time.. unlike the last time i tried to finish it at IHM.. the class is small..the people are friendly..plus.. i entered thru' relations (my supervisor's) so.. hehe.. i'm at an advantage.. even though i've missed many lessons coz they've started back in May. Rite of acceptance 13 august. Should be baptised in April like the rest of the churches if things go well. This info is more for Catholic friends.
Oh yah now i remembered.. about my work hor.. dunnoe if you realised hor.. i've not been bitching about my work for sometime liao.. coz hor.. i've opened up my mind & heart.. see things thru' already.. infact..got a few incidents that would've pissed me off & hate a lot of people..but now surprisingly.. no feeling maybe because i've accepted that they're like that.. & i expected the results...
that day was the day i went for my haircut (7th July) haha.. first time so short in many years i think. shoulder length lah.. not so aunti liao lah.. then hairstylist very good hor.. knows how to layer & trim it til very nice hor.. i like my new fringe.. hehe.. but too bad dunnoe his name.. only noe he's at Jean Yip Bishan.. hor.. tall, golden hair.. (typically ah beng).. not very good looking but nice body hahah.. anyway.. mum said should go find out so..next time when i drop by bishan then i will do that lah..
then bishan has got a new building..looks like a library..but dunnoe if it is lah.. updated again..or if you know.. tell me lah!
okay..that's all for now.. :) May God bless all of you. Have a good weekend ahead!!!
Goong : Princess Hour
Okay all about the current korean drama i'm watching okay..I like the shorter, bleached hair guy..the other tall one reminds me of that guy in 5566 (now in club 183) one..
This a good website to read all about the details (including cast):
http://asianfanatics.net/forum/lofiversion/index.php/t123470.html
Want pictures? Plenty of them at this website:
http://www.hancinema.net/korean_drama_Princess_Hours.php
This a good website to read all about the details (including cast):
http://asianfanatics.net/forum/lofiversion/index.php/t123470.html
Want pictures? Plenty of them at this website:
http://www.hancinema.net/korean_drama_Princess_Hours.php
Thursday, July 20, 2006
Korean Actors
hehe.. wah xm & i sama sama..like hyun bin hor! wahlau that time hor..searched like mad for his photo only could find one..the one below in the previous post lor.. then found out my friends in school also like the same thing wor! wah..alot of korean drama fans oso leh..that's why can buy "Gong" (Palace: princess hour) heard that part2 hor..might come next week..hope so ah! else.. "tiao dan" middle of the story very sian..that's why i'm slowly watching each episode ah..hehe..
Plus i heard very interesting news from my aunt(another fan) that the leads from "xin nian 18 siu" (18 year old bride) hor.. are real life couple leh! wah! they're actually dating each other! so fortunate ah.. for both for them..now watching that drama has more meaning liao lor hehe.. they very suitable indeed leh!
Wah..actually first time see Lee Dong Jian hor.. he's not handsome lah..then see him act liao hor.. plus hear his actually voice..wah..very charming..very manly leh.. he's got a good singing voice.. sang a song in the drama hor..very mesmerising hor.. guess that's when i fell in love with him lah..then i found out he's a singer leh!
Actually hor did read before that many koreans singers are venturing into the acting field lah..that's why lah he must be one of those lah.. another one hor.. That gal who tried to snatch Hyun Bin in "I love Jin Sam Soon" (the one with cancer lor..came back from america).. is actually a singer too u noe? in a band lah.. wah.. interesting leh..
Of coz.. it all started with "Full House" which Rain acted in lah! haha.. that's when i realised korean dramas are so great ah! better than HongKong, Taiwan & Japanese ones! He's so boyish right? at first i also dun like him..then watch the drama liao then wah really love the character he portrayed and therefore with him lor..hhee..e. He's a singer lah..everyone noes.. but wah..he's acted in many dramas and movies leh.. but think not all very good lah..saw some summary hor..like not nice like that..but hor.. must admit lah he's got a damn solid body/figure xia! wahlau.. would love so much to caress it haha.. okay lah dun so R(A) liao lah..
Then hor.. i saw his album and realised JJ(our local singer lah) is copying his style leh.. he also doesn't have very solid looking face..but body damn stylo plus..his MTV hor and his current image very much like Rain leh.. agree anot? but anyway i like lah hehe..
So that's all now for my Korean updates..hehe.. anymore please let me noe hor..i very interested hor! ;0
Plus i heard very interesting news from my aunt(another fan) that the leads from "xin nian 18 siu" (18 year old bride) hor.. are real life couple leh! wah! they're actually dating each other! so fortunate ah.. for both for them..now watching that drama has more meaning liao lor hehe.. they very suitable indeed leh!Wah..actually first time see Lee Dong Jian hor.. he's not handsome lah..then see him act liao hor.. plus hear his actually voice..wah..very charming..very manly leh.. he's got a good singing voice.. sang a song in the drama hor..very mesmerising hor.. guess that's when i fell in love with him lah..then i found out he's a singer leh!
Actually hor did read before that many koreans singers are venturing into the acting field lah..that's why lah he must be one of those lah.. another one hor.. That gal who tried to snatch Hyun Bin in "I love Jin Sam Soon" (the one with cancer lor..came back from america).. is actually a singer too u noe? in a band lah.. wah.. interesting leh..
Of coz.. it all started with "Full House" which Rain acted in lah! haha.. that's when i realised korean dramas are so great ah! better than HongKong, Taiwan & Japanese ones! He's so boyish right? at first i also dun like him..then watch the drama liao then wah really love the character he portrayed and therefore with him lor..hhee..e. He's a singer lah..everyone noes.. but wah..he's acted in many dramas and movies leh.. but think not all very good lah..saw some summary hor..like not nice like that..but hor.. must admit lah he's got a damn solid body/figure xia! wahlau.. would love so much to caress it haha.. okay lah dun so R(A) liao lah..Then hor.. i saw his album and realised JJ(our local singer lah) is copying his style leh.. he also doesn't have very solid looking face..but body damn stylo plus..his MTV hor and his current image very much like Rain leh.. agree anot? but anyway i like lah hehe..
So that's all now for my Korean updates..hehe.. anymore please let me noe hor..i very interested hor! ;0
Tuesday, July 18, 2006
Aimless Blog
actually nothing to say..yet got things to say.. so kinda lost ah..
well..sunday finally bought my anti-virus (McAfee Intenet Suite) at Challenger.. hehe.. online was 120+ & i thought i was cheap (coz cheaper than from US website).. skali found a better deal. $79 only..plus free sports bag! Given to my dad coz he wanna use when he goes Thailand for his company trip..
oh he not big boss lah.. but he's his own boss lah..haha.. a cabby.. hiakhiak .. dun worry.. won't be offended by remarks abt cabby.. coz i also make alot.. infact since i know the industry better coz of my dad (eh..i oso dunnoe that much lah..hee..) i tend to be more skeptical of other cabbies.. plus of coz my dad is a super 'kia-si' driver..so won't anyhow break rules.. so i'm very luckily to be able to critise other cabbies haha..
Oh..anyway.. back to the McAfee story.. installed hor..gotta restarted my pc so many times..aiyo..so tiring..plus my pc is from year 2001 when XP first appeared hor..so you can imagine how slow lah..but at least pentium 4 that's why can tahan until now.. (plus i've upgraded many things haha.. except the processor).. SO.. what's the result of my scan?? only one potential unwanted program (or what lah..) then hor.. felt like my sunday journey to the anti-virus very wasted.. and wasted my money haha.. no lah..at least when i do online transaction i'm not so worried hiak hiak...
Then hor.. my mom recentlly very crazy about korean dramas! haik i 'tah tio' ah.. coz i like mah..then now she's keen she will buy or borrow then i can watch lor! but hor.. i had to spend to buy something very good and similiar to "18year old bride" ('xin niang xi ba sui') wah.. like very good leh.. it's called "Palace: Princess Hours" part 1 ('gong'). now awaiting part 2.. i very like the Hyun bin ("I love Jin San Soon" male lead - Left Picture). Then also Lee Tong Jian ("18 year old bride" male lead).. wah.. so wished i'm the female lead xia hhaa..a.
Wah Hyun Bin is handsome hor? he's also acted in the movie "Millionaire's First Love" Must watch must watch..bhehee.. but i haven't watch yet.. hiak..
Also, i've forgotten to mention that i've signed up for Great Eastern's Life 10k Run.. of coz i signed up for the fun 5K one instead lah..i where got so good..haven't been working out regularly how to run wor..at most jog hor..can do only about 800m.. aiyo.. must train til actual day..else very 'lao kui' if i'm the only one left behind walking to complete the run haha... Please let me know if any of you are interested ah.. i repeat ah: I will be jogging/walking. NOT running okay. it's just for fun.. my first such event EVER! i will appreciate your support of any kind though *grin*
Oh yah.. dor and i were talking about our poly friend.. so amazing that he 'disappeared' for a long time (email-wise) that we were both surprised when he replied/forwarded email to us. Coz i've got the updated..we both realised y.. *winkz to dor*..anyway.. it's better than nothing so i'm very happy to receive such emails.
& hor.. my paternal grandma who used to stay with me.. announced to my mother hor.. she's got 3 new great-grandsons.. within a month.. wow.. my closest cousin who just got married last year i think.. gave birth to a son! she's only 1 year older than me! There's still hope for me! apparently it's a trend to date for many years.. she did.. my next-door neighbour did.. my colleague who happens to be my PL junior also did (Plus she also gave birth to son about 2 wks ago) hiak...wah.. but then it's because they all knew they're gonna be together..& they worked hard to earn money so that they can have a better future..
haiz.. talking of that leads me back to my baby.. he also shared his plans for the future with me.. i believe he can do it.. but then i've jeopardized it.. so sad.. haiz.. actually i felt very much we were like those couples i've mentioned about.. just that as usual.. i'm austistic (my baby said so) in relating things like that.. i can't make the relation.. thus i've always been very bad with PR.. it's my downfall..eh..that & also i'm lazy lah hehe...
My memory is getting worse...i can't even remember things from the day before.. i need to make big effort to remember them..maybe coz i've been so busy remember the bad things & analysing them.. coz good things i can't remember.. haiz.. pray hard that God will cure me of this illnesss.. meanwhile.. i try hardest as i can as a human..
btw.. thanks Wen for your support..& always positive (Plus cute) remarks.. always happy to read such messages.. do keep them coming..plus XM for updating her blog so regularly so that i've got something new to read everyday! I'm your blog fan! hhaa.. & of coz must thank Dor for giving the guidiance for my spiritual & emotional health.
Which reminds me of this quote,
well..sunday finally bought my anti-virus (McAfee Intenet Suite) at Challenger.. hehe.. online was 120+ & i thought i was cheap (coz cheaper than from US website).. skali found a better deal. $79 only..plus free sports bag! Given to my dad coz he wanna use when he goes Thailand for his company trip..
oh he not big boss lah.. but he's his own boss lah..haha.. a cabby.. hiakhiak .. dun worry.. won't be offended by remarks abt cabby.. coz i also make alot.. infact since i know the industry better coz of my dad (eh..i oso dunnoe that much lah..hee..) i tend to be more skeptical of other cabbies.. plus of coz my dad is a super 'kia-si' driver..so won't anyhow break rules.. so i'm very luckily to be able to critise other cabbies haha..
Oh..anyway.. back to the McAfee story.. installed hor..gotta restarted my pc so many times..aiyo..so tiring..plus my pc is from year 2001 when XP first appeared hor..so you can imagine how slow lah..but at least pentium 4 that's why can tahan until now.. (plus i've upgraded many things haha.. except the processor).. SO.. what's the result of my scan?? only one potential unwanted program (or what lah..) then hor.. felt like my sunday journey to the anti-virus very wasted.. and wasted my money haha.. no lah..at least when i do online transaction i'm not so worried hiak hiak...
Then hor.. my mom recentlly very crazy about korean dramas! haik i 'tah tio' ah.. coz i like mah..then now she's keen she will buy or borrow then i can watch lor! but hor.. i had to spend to buy something very good and similiar to "18year old bride" ('xin niang xi ba sui') wah.. like very good leh.. it's called "Palace: Princess Hours" part 1 ('gong'). now awaiting part 2.. i very like the Hyun bin ("I love Jin San Soon" male lead - Left Picture). Then also Lee Tong Jian ("18 year old bride" male lead).. wah.. so wished i'm the female lead xia hhaa..a.
Wah Hyun Bin is handsome hor? he's also acted in the movie "Millionaire's First Love" Must watch must watch..bhehee.. but i haven't watch yet.. hiak..
Also, i've forgotten to mention that i've signed up for Great Eastern's Life 10k Run.. of coz i signed up for the fun 5K one instead lah..i where got so good..haven't been working out regularly how to run wor..at most jog hor..can do only about 800m.. aiyo.. must train til actual day..else very 'lao kui' if i'm the only one left behind walking to complete the run haha... Please let me know if any of you are interested ah.. i repeat ah: I will be jogging/walking. NOT running okay. it's just for fun.. my first such event EVER! i will appreciate your support of any kind though *grin*
Oh yah.. dor and i were talking about our poly friend.. so amazing that he 'disappeared' for a long time (email-wise) that we were both surprised when he replied/forwarded email to us. Coz i've got the updated..we both realised y.. *winkz to dor*..anyway.. it's better than nothing so i'm very happy to receive such emails.
& hor.. my paternal grandma who used to stay with me.. announced to my mother hor.. she's got 3 new great-grandsons.. within a month.. wow.. my closest cousin who just got married last year i think.. gave birth to a son! she's only 1 year older than me! There's still hope for me! apparently it's a trend to date for many years.. she did.. my next-door neighbour did.. my colleague who happens to be my PL junior also did (Plus she also gave birth to son about 2 wks ago) hiak...wah.. but then it's because they all knew they're gonna be together..& they worked hard to earn money so that they can have a better future..
haiz.. talking of that leads me back to my baby.. he also shared his plans for the future with me.. i believe he can do it.. but then i've jeopardized it.. so sad.. haiz.. actually i felt very much we were like those couples i've mentioned about.. just that as usual.. i'm austistic (my baby said so) in relating things like that.. i can't make the relation.. thus i've always been very bad with PR.. it's my downfall..eh..that & also i'm lazy lah hehe...
My memory is getting worse...i can't even remember things from the day before.. i need to make big effort to remember them..maybe coz i've been so busy remember the bad things & analysing them.. coz good things i can't remember.. haiz.. pray hard that God will cure me of this illnesss.. meanwhile.. i try hardest as i can as a human..
btw.. thanks Wen for your support..& always positive (Plus cute) remarks.. always happy to read such messages.. do keep them coming..plus XM for updating her blog so regularly so that i've got something new to read everyday! I'm your blog fan! hhaa.. & of coz must thank Dor for giving the guidiance for my spiritual & emotional health.
Which reminds me of this quote,
"No man is an island..."
hmm.. let me noe if i've got it right ah..but you know what i mean right? Friends are important..
Sunday, July 16, 2006
Running Away From Reality
hi friends, it's been a long time since i've last blogged. Reason? The title above.
First, it was due to time spend with my baby. knowing he's going to leave again, i just had to spend more time with him. That didn't leave much time for my work, let alone other things. I've neglected many other aspects as well. Which i hope will be forgiven.
Then, he was not around and i was in a daze. First time that we're not spending 24h/day with each other. As usual, if you were scroll through all my past blogs, i've been going thru' the 'break-up' sequence again. So i've been given hell to him. We had the biggest argument/misunderstanding ever the 1st weekend he was there. The days after had been hellish.
why? I tried to get things back to the way they were but he wasn't trying to help. Then i felt insecure after getting such cold, polite, superficial chats with him. Then another incident happened. The 2nd weekend, he went to dinner/drinking til 3am. He didn't answer the calls or sms, said his hp faulty(which is, of coz) and shut down after a while. Well, redeeming fact is that he called me once he was back in his hotel. We had a good talk and things were okay again.
But everytime he would change into the devil the next day. I would complain the same night and things were okay again. it's been pretty much like that. it's been tiring for him yes. It's been tiring for me to go thru' the same shit too. haiz.. so many bad words here.. censor censor..
Anyway, Why am i like this? coz he's not as attentive or caring as the last few times he's been there. He used to walk long distances in the cold winter along narrow sidewalks to get to the public phone to call me using the Worldcard(spent like $200?). Now he's even complaining about making phone calls on his hp. haiz.. always he's busy. always irritated tone.
Well, dor mentioned that i've been selfish not thinking for him. coz he's overseas working so hard and i've not been supportive. well, i agree with it lor. i've not been lor. i fell guilty. but yet at the same time, i seek the affection that i use to get from him. so it's been a tough time. and i've been running away from it. thus no news all these while.
Also, i've just started to attend the Life in the Spirit Seminiar (LiSS) which is in Risen Christ church(Toa payoh) which i must thank dor for letting me know. It's started off something which has reconnected me to God. It's the first time i've been so touched by God.
I'm a person who gets hurt easily thus tend to back off or act cool when someone is not so responsive. Thus i actually felt love for everyone around the very next day in school. It was amazing. Then i had my first long talk with God, i cried and cried asking for forgivness for being away from him for so long.
Now that i think about it. I've been very blessed and protected. how? When i'm on the roads, I sensed alot of times i've escaped from would-be accidents. You know the times when you sense like you're gonna be hurt, then hey, all clear leh. okay leh. Phiew. Well, i believe those are the time he was protecting me. That is the biggest love of all. Unconditional love regardless of all the things you've done wrongly. Even though i've stopped praying to him and dun even think of him and even critised him, he was there for me.
First, it was due to time spend with my baby. knowing he's going to leave again, i just had to spend more time with him. That didn't leave much time for my work, let alone other things. I've neglected many other aspects as well. Which i hope will be forgiven.
Then, he was not around and i was in a daze. First time that we're not spending 24h/day with each other. As usual, if you were scroll through all my past blogs, i've been going thru' the 'break-up' sequence again. So i've been given hell to him. We had the biggest argument/misunderstanding ever the 1st weekend he was there. The days after had been hellish.
why? I tried to get things back to the way they were but he wasn't trying to help. Then i felt insecure after getting such cold, polite, superficial chats with him. Then another incident happened. The 2nd weekend, he went to dinner/drinking til 3am. He didn't answer the calls or sms, said his hp faulty(which is, of coz) and shut down after a while. Well, redeeming fact is that he called me once he was back in his hotel. We had a good talk and things were okay again.
But everytime he would change into the devil the next day. I would complain the same night and things were okay again. it's been pretty much like that. it's been tiring for him yes. It's been tiring for me to go thru' the same shit too. haiz.. so many bad words here.. censor censor..
Anyway, Why am i like this? coz he's not as attentive or caring as the last few times he's been there. He used to walk long distances in the cold winter along narrow sidewalks to get to the public phone to call me using the Worldcard(spent like $200?). Now he's even complaining about making phone calls on his hp. haiz.. always he's busy. always irritated tone.
Well, dor mentioned that i've been selfish not thinking for him. coz he's overseas working so hard and i've not been supportive. well, i agree with it lor. i've not been lor. i fell guilty. but yet at the same time, i seek the affection that i use to get from him. so it's been a tough time. and i've been running away from it. thus no news all these while.
Also, i've just started to attend the Life in the Spirit Seminiar (LiSS) which is in Risen Christ church(Toa payoh) which i must thank dor for letting me know. It's started off something which has reconnected me to God. It's the first time i've been so touched by God.
I'm a person who gets hurt easily thus tend to back off or act cool when someone is not so responsive. Thus i actually felt love for everyone around the very next day in school. It was amazing. Then i had my first long talk with God, i cried and cried asking for forgivness for being away from him for so long.
Now that i think about it. I've been very blessed and protected. how? When i'm on the roads, I sensed alot of times i've escaped from would-be accidents. You know the times when you sense like you're gonna be hurt, then hey, all clear leh. okay leh. Phiew. Well, i believe those are the time he was protecting me. That is the biggest love of all. Unconditional love regardless of all the things you've done wrongly. Even though i've stopped praying to him and dun even think of him and even critised him, he was there for me.
Saturday, June 24, 2006
Parking Idiots in Singapore
Hahaa!!! finally a website to shame those idiotic drivers who can't park!
SINGAPORE VERsion!
check it out:
http://parkingidiots.blogspot.com
whoohoo!!! better not let me catch one..haha.a..
SINGAPORE VERsion!
check it out:
http://parkingidiots.blogspot.com
whoohoo!!! better not let me catch one..haha.a..