Wise Advices for the Guys - Forwarded Email

love the girl in ur heart, not in ur mind.
if u base ur relationship on feelings,
it will fail for there are ups and downs in feelings.
girls are there to be loved, not toyed around.

love her for who she is.
don't even think about changing any bit about her.
6 billion pple in this world and 6 billion different personalities.
she's special and shy will stay that way.
you change any part of her, you'll change her forever.
don't subsitute her for anyone else, they are juz unique in their own ways.

love whole-heartedly.
she sacrificed alot for you so you'd better really treasure her.
she could hv just got up and date a so much more dashing guy in town but she chose you instead all becuz of love.so love her, guys, not play with her.
don't just get the girl to beg you to stay or watsoever.
if you're with her, love her.

don't cause a strain in the relationship,
you'll end up loving each otherout of pity or charity,
that's not respecting love at all.
respect love the way it is and everything will be the best it can be.
i've been there and i know how it feels.

don't expect perfection from her.
she's the only one in the world and she's done the best she could.

don't go calling other girls 'honey' or 'darling',
how would it feel ifyour girl calls other guys the same way?
be faithful, enough is enough.

socialise only when you're single.
you socialise and flirt around is to get the girl of your dreams.
get it over when she's already yours, don't ask for more.

it never kills to be romantic.
think, be flexible.
getting that diamond ring isn't the only gift for her.
be realistic, she's human and she lives life just like you.
something sweet and simple always get the job done.

money doesn't exist between couples, its the love.

never promise her that you'll love her forever becuz your forever might end the next day.
love her as it each day is the last.

sweet talking only applies for singles, not for attached guys.
do that and you'll really break your girl's heart.

it isn't good being too well-known too, it'll give her a sense of insecurity.
remember, INSECURITY.

promise her and make sure you never break the promise.
swear to her and make sure you live up to your word.
pledge your love to her and her only.

loving her is giving her your heart to break it but trusting her not to.
same goes for her,
giving you her heart means allowing you to break it and trusting you not to.
instead, she'll cherish it and protect it.
shouldn't you do the same thing as well?
that's love.

give her your heart, your life, your everything.
lay down your life and prepare to die for her when the need arises.
but stay strong and live through another day,
she can never live without you.

Gohae

Gohae Lyrics (Lovers / Yeonin Original Soundtrack)

Singer: Chi Yul/ Romanization by Kreah

ojji-ham-ni-kka

ottohke hal-kkayo

kamhi jega-kamhi

kunyo-rul sarang-hamnida

choyonghi

na juchana juchado mo-ru-ge

ijun chok sanda-nun kon

sarado chugun gomnida

sesange binando michyobo-il

mo-seub-domodu da alji-man

kuge duryo-jiman sarang-hamnida

odiye innayoje

yae-gi jongmal turrishinayo

kurom pi hallinun kayomsun

che sarangul / algo kyoshin-gayo

yoso-hae juseyo

bol ha-shindamyon cho badul-kkeyo

hona konyomanun

jege kunyo hanaman / hora-khae-chusoso

odiye innayoje

yae-gi jongmal turrishinayo

kurom pi hallinun kayomsun

che sarangul / algo kyoshin-gayo

yoso-hae juseyo

bol ha-shindamyon cho badul-kkeyo

hona konyomanun

jege kunyo hanaman / hora-khae-chusoso

Everything - misia

you by chance during one of the times we passed by each other Isn't it wonderful that a miracle that I wished for Is right next to me Wanting to be with you, the time that we can't be together passes Slipping through the door, again I remember You laughing with that person My love, don't make me sad There are nights that I cry myself to sleep Don't look at the past, just look at me You're everything, you're everything I'm stronger than you think If you have kind lies for me, I don't need them All I want is you How long of a time can be called forever? I want to go to the endlessly far away future with you And peek at that day with you My love, hold me Like you always do in the midst of tender times Hold my hand and look only at the present You're everything, you're everything If I saw you even at the place that we parted Surely I would forgive you, on any night You're everything, you're everything I'm strong enough to dream of you Now let's bravely change the power of love You're everything, you're everything If I saw you even at the place that we parted The pain in my heart would always disappear You're everything, you're everything I'm stronger than you think If you have kind lies for me, I don't need them All I want is you You're eveything, you're everything You're eveything, my everything SENS

Shape Run Results

Yup it's confirmed. My timing is 34mins something. My position in the 5km run is 261. hm....which means i'm faster than a few thousand people, yet i'm behind 260 people hehe...

Okay goal for next year? improve my timing plus be the top 200 positions? try lah..haha..

My Shape Run Photo

It's quite an ugly shot but at least it capture me at the finishing line with my timing! :)

Persistency of Gastric Flu

Took MC last monday because of gastric flu. It actually started with mild gastric pains last thursday. It did some sort of hide & seek. Eventually, it wore me down and i was pretty distrubed emotionally as well. Thus i decided to take leave to rest.

However, after days of taking medication, this problem still persisted. It got so bad today that i had to rush home to take my diahrrea medicine. Thus missing my opportunity to meet up with dor, uncle & sharon (our new kaki). I think i need to find time to visit my family doctor a second time.

What am i doing now? Resting my body but working my mind to death. Trying to catch up with all the things that i should've done during the week-long vacation. There is an array of documents to work on this weekend. Never ending.

As always, the start of a new term means a lot of administrative things to handle. Plus a few extra duties are scheduled for this week. Which means i'm overworked! Saturday is not let off as well. Going to the Science Centre for some lab work.

Met sandra there with her new bf, eric. Amazing how it is so coincidental that we get to meet her. I mean Singapore is not that big but still there are plenty of places to go to. Yet we happened to be at the same place & the same time.

I believe that a greater being is at work here. So fear not, we will get to meet the right person at the right time as well. It is possible!

I'VE DONE IT!!

YIPPEEE!!!!

I've completed my first ever proper mass run!!! Shape Run happened today 9 September 2007 early in the morning at around 7.45am for 5km runners like me. :)

I think i finished it around half an hour!! What's a big accomplishment is that i've managed to run/jog/briskwalk non-stop all the way to the finishing line! Aiya so embrassing when i dash to the finishing line and slowed down. Only to find out that the actual one is still another 10+metres away haha... damn malu xia.. Plus i think the photographers managed to take a shot or two of me. So i hope to find it soon tmw on nike's website.

What's also amazing is that i managed to jog my way ahead of thousands of people! Yippeee! I'm always panting after jogging awhile on my own and didn't think i would survive. But for today that panting and blisters only happened after about 3km! Wow! I was so impressed that i even thought of sprinting to the finishing line. Of course my lungs couldn't take it lah. So i simply aimed for the best my body can achieve.

BListers were taken care of by Jesus, cause i've asked Mother Mary to help me ah..I told Jesus i can handle the panting, just don't let the blisters stop me kay. Remove the pain. Wah i said the hail mary all the way to the finishing line. Yup managed to ignore the pain for the longest time.

Plus I was saved from a major accident today by God. Guess if there was a collision i could've died. Haiz.. Was so lost in Shenton deciding what to do with my time. Go library or karoke or what? So spinning around and trying to find my way to the library eventually. I suddenly recognise the way and had to quickly change lane to turn right. I saw the green light and just went ahead. Wahlau! A car was heading straight for me but managed to avoid colliding with me. It happened so fast that i didn't even have the chance to see it.

Haiz.. It's likely that the car dashed the red lights. After that i just told God, i've used up my miracles allowances for the day. I will gladly accepted whatever shit that comes my way for the rest of the day. Coz i'm just appreciative that i'm kept safe from harm and heafty car repair.

Anyway I'm always aware of the vehicles and traffic conditions around me one. That's how i managed to 'save' that motorcyclist that time on the CTE. Using my superhero's special senses hehe.. But somehow been so preoccupied with what to do that i kind of took road conditions for granted lah.

I'm A Sinner!

As if the number of sins i've committed is not enough, i've added another bigger one to the pile. For the first time ever since i've got baptised, I've missed my weekend mass!

...Just say the word and i shall be healed...

Well, so i'm now a bigger sinner coz i wasn't healed over the weekend. A miserable sunday it was. How i missed my mass? well ...don't blame others lah.. blame myself for not being patient enough to stay around at novena church lor. But i must say what led to that.

Started off with flu that made me so sick that i had trouble getting out of bed. so i decided not to go to the pocession of Mother Mary and instead go for regular evening mass at sfx. Tried to play some online multiplayer bridge and kenna 'tekkan' by some irritating idiot who was a super hostile busy body. He wouldn't let me off and kept finding me to message me some nonsense. I gave up since my first try at this cause so much trouble.

Then when my flu got better after some rest and medication, i decided to go novena after all. I managed to reach there slightly before 6pm but the entrances were sealed off liao. I tried my luck anyway and asked the marshals there for help. Well, the people gathering outside were so terrible!

Since i had to make my way to the front to get to the marshals, i've no choice but to be thick-skinned abit and say alot of 'excuse me' & 'sorry' to get through. However, alot of these people were so bad as to say 'NO!' & 'What are you trying to do?" of course all delivered in a really nasty manner, accompanied by stares and some purposeful elbowings.

Of course, my faith & will that day was really damn low, i gave up and left. Only to find out later, that they opened up the entrances after a while! Nevermind, i was already at changi beach enjoying the planes and scenic view. Was feeling my 'downest'! Rejections and some bad discoveries left me pretty suicidal. Of course i wouldn't do silly things like that. But then it was really that bad.

Thankfully uncle's sms accompanied me through-out as usual. I'm really thankful. She even made efforts to arrange to meet up and accompany me. Also give in to my whims & wills.. hm..right words or not. .. that day.. Wasn't in the mood to put up with any shit and nonsense.. however i must praise myself for being able to tahan some things that really pissed me off later that night. Of course, it all comes from the Lord. Else i would've already done worse damages.

Dor has been very supportive also. When she heard the story from uncle, she sms me something that somehow made my day seem brighter. It is nice to know that i'm not alone in going through this. Not only that, i reached my financial desperation state. She helped me out and even offered to top up my petrol. Wahlau! Where else can i find another friend like that in the world!

Realised they both have become like my family liao. Can't do without them. As important as my family. Congrats to both of you on your new stats in my love list :)

(hee.. i know i BHB.. buai hiao bai..not shy=arrogant..just trying to joke in a dry way k..)

Change of Addresses

Hey if you can see this means you've found my new blog address :)

Due to some unwanted attention to my old address, i decided to change it. Attention from whom? Well, some bastard in particular. No prize for guessing it right coz you will get it with one try anyway.

I know it's not much change. i mean if you're really determined to get to my blog, you will probably try a few variations and get it pretty soon. haha..

Long story.. i will just let this sit out for a while first before i figure if it's safe to blog yet.

May have to change to something drastically different if need be..

SIAN OREDI !

I've lost my interest in blog. I've been avoiding internet again. I've made a vow to myself not to look at certain sites again ever! It takes great restraining and will power to stay away from it. Thus the resulting action and the lost of interest in updating my blog.

I'm depressed again. I'm doing my driving rounds again. So much so mum said it's another new addiction for me. I got angry at first but realised later that she was right. It is making up for some other forms of actions that i would've taken back when i was 10 years younger.

I've been thinking some things and i'm so hurt by the conclusions i've been making. I've been so distracted by them thoughts that i've been rather absent-minded. Things are no longer connect in my head and i will often say the obvious.

I'm still not ready to share them cause they are still rather raw and hurting. I'm not sure if it's the right thing to do to share them here. I've been brooding over it for sometime and still need somemore to come to terms with it.

Yet Another Saturday (A VERY LONG Entry)

I zombied the whole day. My care was exposed to rain & shine. The grass beneath it had no chance to photosynthesize. The wallet I bought for my favorite cousin’s was slowly deteriorating away in it wrapping in the glove compartment.
Woke with determination to fill my day with various fun activities and yet as my fingers touched the keyboard, it withered away. I’ve always acknowledged I’m a weak-minded creature so it’s so easy to sway me.

Work on the school’s notebook soon wore me down. I gave up updating my work review and entered the world wide web to browse pages hoping to brighten up my day. Read up all the latest on friends on their Blogs, Friendster, MySpace and various email accounts.

Somehow, I ran out of interesting pages to view. I got curious and soon went to a page that I’ve been avoiding since the day I discovered it. Something that caused all the fits-like reactions a few weeks back.

That was the even that put me off the net for more than a week. I received a thrashing from my beloved sister who asked a simple question which I had difficulty answering then.

“Why are you still reacting to it at all, after so long?”

Yes, damn it! Why am I indeed?! Thus my sub-conscious ban of all access to the Spartan space that contained all the information in the world. I didn’t even use it at work. Many important emails got ignored and yet I was unconcerned.

I only realized much later when I saw the date of my blog’s last entry. I figured it was a good thing that my brain did that on its own. It helped. Both my sister’s elaborated exclamations and the band. I’ve accepted some more facts.

Dealing with things came in the form of a Korean drama I borrowed from my best friend in school. “Foxy Lady” is the title. Doesn’t really matter what the whole story is all about. The feelings and openness of affection shown in the show replicated my past somehow.

I’ve finally sort-of finished watching it today. Yes, that’s how my day was spent. Drama-chasing. I lazed in bed tearing to the unfolding storyline. I’ve no inspiration to go out whatsoever. I didn’t care that I’m spending a day typical of a spinster’s. That I’m dateless/friendless on a Saturday.

The boredom ended finally when I decided, ENOUGH IS ENOUGH! I need to feel alive again! Even if I had to do the same routine!

So here I am now at West Coast Park’s McDonalds. AGAIN! Writing my blog entry on an outdated diary which I bought in KLCC’s Times bookshop in Dec 2005. it was supposed to be a close friend’s Christmas gift. But seeing that she has got one similar gift already and her other friends bought her even better stuff, I chose to not to give it.

For the first time, plenty of people here at WCP. The car park was full. A lot of BBQ-ing, people chatting with friends. I almost left because I couldn’t find a single table. Maybe it’s the first time I’m here on a Saturday. I brought my magazines along, planning to read but couldn’t resist the need to write.

I was at Marina South before this. I wanted to play games at the arcade. As usual the young crowd around there made me very aware of the number of years since I came into existence. I felt as if my age was tattooed onto my forehead. I left

Now I recall how I felt when I was single that last time. Comfortable, peaceful and yet that restless, hopeless and frustrated feeling. Difference now is that I’ve got a set of wheels to get me away. A hell lot of difference! What worse than being restless, penniless and then stuck at home in the middle of the night? I totally understand that feeling, my friend. I count myself lucky.

Did you know how I had a perfectly drivable car waiting at the car park for me everyday? Yet I couldn’t drive it? That was bad. I lost count of the times I’ve thought of driving it. There were a few times that I was determined enough to be sitting behind the steering wheel and started the engine but didn't move it a single inch.

I’m talking so much about it cause I’m reliving it now. With a car, without any ‘spare tyres’ aka back-up boyfriends or any friends at all. Those are the three main differences. I did consider asking people out. Firstly, there weren’t many I could call. Also, I didn’t want any of their company. I just wanted some alone time.. maybe to reflect.

SEE? I’m still a loner. I serious think that I’m going bonkers! I will soon need to join that special hospital at Hougang. Work is the only distraction/antidote/inspiration for going on. Therefore for once, I’m actually running out of things to mark.

In my life, things work like this:

“Good Love Life = Bad Work Life”

Nadah! Backspace all that! Redo.

“Good Love Life = Bad EVERYTHING in Life”

Now back to my reading or maybe my driving trip which is WAY overdue.

DNA Test - Concerned Thinker

Concerned Thinker

You are a Thinker
Your cautiousness, appreciation of functionality, and imagination combine to make you a THINKER.

You have a vivid capacity for imagery that allows you to see beyond your present circumstances.

You like to be sure of yourself before voicing your opinion.

A lot of your time is spent at home, or with the people you care about.

Although you may dream often, you're very aware of how things work, and you value things that work well.

You take comfort in the familiar, and value predictability—and others value those things in you.
Accordingly, you prefer a set routine, and although you often imagine how things can be different, you're hesitant to take risks to change things.

Sometimes you doubt whether you have the ability to face certain challenges, but your practical focus helps you solve most problems.

Because of this, you tend to be more reactive than proactive, thinking thoroughly about the challenges that you face.

You have a broad-based, theoretical understanding of the world that allows you to understand its workings.

You prefer to have time to plan for things, feeling better with a schedule than with keeping plans up in the air until the last minute.

You have a strong sense of style and value your personal presentation - friends may even seek your style advice from time to time.

You tend to believe that things happen for a reason, and that not everything is under our control.

If you want to be different:
Try indulging your imagination a bit more by experiencing new and different things.

Have a little more faith in your capacity to do things—turn your thoughts into actions!
how you relate to others

You are Concerned
Your understanding of others' emotions, your sense of right and wrong, and your skeptical nature make you CONCERNED.

Your observations of your environment, in concert with your clearly defined worldview, leads you to be aware of the feelings of others.

Because you can read people well, and because you can understand their feelings, you are often bothered by others' insensitive behavior.

While you appreciate others' emotional nature, you don't think their emotional concerns should take precedence over their obligations to society.

You prefer to be in smaller groups, as big groups can occasionally get out of hand.

Order and structure are somewhat important to you—you believe that people's feelings are better protected when others are respectful and follow certain societal guidelines.

You tend to share your feelings with a few individuals who are close with you, but otherwise you are a somewhat private person.

If you want to be different:
Let your caring nature allow you to put more trust in people in general—you can have more faith in them without losing your valuable skepticism.

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akan datang... my experience up north!

Check this space soon!

Uncle's Gift from LISS at Risen Christ

I didn't go for last monday's LISS/charismatic movement at Risen Christ for the baptism of the holy spirit. That was the day i went A&E at Changi Hospital. Guess what i missed out.

Uncle went there and was alone by herself cause dor is one of the facilitators who are helping to ensure things go smoothly. Amazingly uncle spoke in tongue! She didnt' realised until the lady sitting next to her told her so. Wow! So wonderful! She's not even baptised & already blessed by the holy spirit with this gift of tongues!

This leads me to think about my experience in LISS, i've not received any gifts maybe because i'm not so open to accept like uncle is. She can just give in totally to the Lord. Opened up her heart to God. It's so beautiful.

I'm still waiting, Lord...

Stress Management??

Today we attended a talk that was supposed to be about stress managment. After a quick 5 minutes explaination about what stress is all about, the presenter very sneakly went into health & before we can say "HUH?" she was talking about reflexalogy. That's when i realised that it could protentially be a sales talk.

We didn't even have the time to ponder that thought, when she dropped a electronic plate on our laps and asked us to put both our palms flat on it. WAH! Torture! Can sue them anot? Bloody current running like mad xia! All of us screaming maciam childbirth like that! My friends who are mothers said more painful than childbirth! Say alot of things lah like which finger doesn't move means which part no good. Guess what was my results???

All my fingers didn't move in the beginning at all!! Finally after 15 minutes of torture, 3 of my fingers on both hands started twitching nonstop. But since my index fingers curled up, it means my colon/digestive system has problem. My heart, lungs & liver got problem too. hm.. you go guess lah if it's accurate or not lah hehe...When i finally lift my hands from it, my palms look like it was drenched in water. MY sweat lah! Aiyo, the presentater said my detox system good lah so fast got it out. Then something about cancer! wahlau i almost fainted!

YES, it was a sale talk, they advertise that machine and the price?? Not cheap. SGD390!!! One lady actually bought it. Haiz..

Anyway, the experience stayed with me throughout the whole day even til now, my fingers are still twitching every now & then, trembling most of the time. Had a sudden attack of gastric even though i ate. Sudden sharp crunching pain in my chest nearer my left side, probably mimic heart attack. All those happened about 6 hours after that 'treatment'.

Maybe i do have some health issues...hm...

A Day of Bad Karma...

I was so clumsy today. My elbow 'lang-gar' (hit) the edge of a wooden cabinet. The impact was so bad that i crouched down in pain and couldn't move my whole arm for a few minutes. Didn't realise that there was an open wound til i saw the blood later. I was thinking really hard if i should go A&E incase it's a fracture. So since it hurt the whole day & i've got this really bad flu , i decided to go after school has ended, just to check it out. Hit two birds with one stone.

I was about to turn towards TTSH (Tan Tock Seng Hospital) when i remembered that the wait there is very long, so i turn back into CTE/PIE to go to CGH (Changi General Hospital). In case you're wonder about the driving, yes i drove myself there and it's not a problem cause i usually drive with one hand. Anyway i could still move my injured arm, just not so strong. So i'm not endangering myself or other fellow road users.

I told the previewing nurse/doctor about my injury. Somehow she progressed to asking if i've been overseas in the past month. Wah she's really GOOD! She detected that i was sick even though the temperature check at the entrance said i was okay! WOW! That's observant & experienced! Even asked if i've came into contact with any live chickens in Malaysia. I straight away answered no lah. But then started to doubt my answer. haha.. coz Malaysia got farms mah! haha.. Anyway i was forced to wear a mask & sent into the partitioned fever-patients waiting area. Maciam promoted or demoted depending on how you see it. Felt like an animal in a cage.

Now when it was my turn to see the A&E doctor, it got interesting or NOT. Doc said my elbow is okay & if i want x-ray..can..but have to wait very long. So since doc said okay means i'm okay lor. But instead he treated me for my fever/flu/cough.. Then he said, "30 years old...erm Are you really 30 years old? You don't like you're 30!" wahhhaha! I couldn't stop smiling inside haha.. I said yup i am, thank you. hiak! So cool right? No! I was so sick & couldn't be bother to say more! He asked what i'm working as, where, about the job, about his teacher friends..etc..

If it's been many years back, i would've been shocked at the kind of behaviour the doctor is showing. However after going through so many doctors in all the various departments who are mostly newbies (Coz subsidized mah! So won't get to see Senior Consultants one lah), I've concluded that it's the 'in' style of establishing doctor-patient rapport. Even one super old Senior Consultant that i'm seeing at Skin Centre is doing that too. So the next time you get farney questions/comments from doctors, don't freak out kay! It's the norm. They're just trying to make the patient feel good after their consultation.

Why bother? Coz if you noticed, those doctors who bothered to listen and talk paitently with us are the ones are have super long queues/waiting time & earning big bucks. They want to Super overcharge people (probably to cut down the queue) & yet the crowd keeps on growing! The doctor-cum-aunt/uncle agony will listen to you, give you all the answers to all questions that you been asking & desperate to know/be acknowledged! Isn't that therapeutic enough to cure you?!

I can easily name 2 family doctors of mine who have climb up that path to become 'invincible' doctors! Let's just say they are holistic doctors okay. They know that our hearts & minds come into play when we talk about healing. They treat the patient as a whole & not symptoms by symptoms.

That's how religion works too. By healing the heart & mind, the body will heal too. So if you're seeking alternative treatments, don't forget to try unloading your burden to God. For those interested, you can always join dor on Mondays from 7.30 til 10pm at Risen Christ with her charismatic group. It's the best/most powerful form (that i know lah) of worshiping in the Catholic Faith.

Family Trip

My mum just asked me if can ask my dad along ah!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Reasons??????!!!!!!
1) Taxi no business on those 2 days
2) He very keen to go along
3) He can accompany my mum when i gamble

@$%#^%#& *grumbling*

Bohbian (no choice), i agreed lor. Already mum coming along no difference right?

I set my conditions for my dad:
1) Give me freedom to do whatever i want (including all vices)!
2) Don't say anything about driving throughout the drive!

My dad tend to like to be extra kiasi when it comes to driving. So that's the main reason why i requested for him NOT to come in the first place. That is why i get the chance to critisize other cabbies coz he's unlike them. However it comes at a price. Him always commenting. Especially when both my sister and i first got our licenses.

BTW, my sister would be coming along also IF not for the fact that she has a flight on that day. haha.. truely becoming totally unexpected xia!

Well, advantages about my dad coming along? Back-up driver and my mom's companion so that i can slip away and abandone my mum to gamble. Of course we cannot forget that now i have a bodyguard whose presence should deter any bad intentions from people over there. So think positive lor. That's what uncle said when i was so depressed about my mum going. Thanks uncle.

Let's get back to what these two days.

The dog run was amazing yesterday! Since i've had experience and i'm abit more at ease with some familiar faces (dogs' included!) hehe.. i enjoyed myself alot more! The route yesterday was a heck of a route xia! Forest trails all the way! Wah didn't even had the chance to think, just run along and make it through to the next clearing! So amazed when i realised 45mins had past and we're already back at the starting point! hehe..

Was a GREAT run and the food and beer was good because of the company! I missed my initiation, so had it yesterday in the circle. Had to drink from dog bowl!! WAHAHHHA! shocked xia! wanted to siam but yvonne didn't allow me to siam hha.a.

Her dog, Bond (Golden retriever) tried so many times to kiss me haha.. i even pat it while he was resting next to me. The other terrier, Hosay, was even cuter. Come to squeeze between cindy and i and happily leaning one my thigh. And you will just have all the dogs crowding around you whenever you're holding the curry! haha...

After i showered i thought of meeting uncle to hangout..but how dunnoe why suddenly i feel like i'm going to knockout any moment. So cancelled with uncle, then realised after a while i was starting to feel sick. Blocked nose, headache, sore throat and bodyaches. I actually wanted to sleep at arnd 8pm! Shocked right? Not? i am lor..i've been having insomia for some time liao..first time ever struggling to stay awake.

Anyway, feeling better today liao..But still slept for a few hours in the afternoon again today..just can't stay awake..no inspiration to go out because just too shagged. After those countless hours of sleep, i've became so bored and awake that i decided to go out this evening.. drove around and happened to pass by vivo at arnd 8.30..thought it was early and went there to window-shop (no $$$ okay)..then i changed my indonesia ruppiahs to SGD! wah now a bit more cash on hand, at least i don't feel as pathetic as before. Didn't buy anything lah! Money just to make me feel more secure and safe.

Then drove towards West Coast park again to sit at the Macdonalds to read up on malaysia. Since the gospel today got to me, i decided to read more about it. Colossians 2:6 onwards. Reminded me of my faith and life in christ. It's been a long time since any readings or gospel got to me..so i shared with dor and uncle. Amazingly uncle actually read! Very quickly as well! shocked xia so she said cause i never ever message her anything like that before lah.. i asked her to read that chapter btw. hee.. Go read if you have the time.. applicable to all sisters and brothers in christ.

Finalised Plans

My mom insisted on going Genting with me. I have no money at all. Thus i've reluntantly agreed to it. Took me a week to decide coz it means i won't get to enjoy my drive up north. However she can tahan my tantrums so okay lah. Even changed money liao. now i'm rm500 richer haha.. coz of my mom lor. So it has its benefits lah. At least now i don't have to worry about running out of cash over there. I always have my mum as instant ATM machine hehe.. Very bad hor but boh bian..So i decided i will eventually make a trip by myself there ... at the end of the year when i get my bonus and i'm not dying (financially).

First time since i restarted my blogging that i've not had a entry for a week. Why leh? Currently only dor, uncle & my sister knows what happened last sunday. I don't wish to talk about it here either. So if you're really keen to know, ask me personally.. really stupid lah..no big deal actually.. just that it affected me so much. Was so shocked that i was shaking all over and it was a little like fits. But i'm alright, nothing physically wrong with me. Just plain simple shock reaction.

Just went to the zoo yesterday. I was a bit kapoh(busybody) thus went round to check that every one has returned to the entrance to board the buses. Couldn't find them, was at the other end of the zoo and it was time to head back to school, so i RAN like a mad woman back to the entrance. First time doing that! haha.. i'm amazed i made it .. only to find out all of them were back! wahkao..at least i worked out a little haha.. at the zoo, no less.. :)

Going for my dog run in a few hours time. This time at mandai! haha.. 2nd time there this week liao! This time round all of my colleagues are running with me (two missed out the last time cause they were the ones who laid the route and were too tired). Bought my 'super cheap' bata shoes to be thrown away anytime when it's too dirty. Got ready my long socks 2 haha.. this time i'm prepared. But then just heard from another guy who went for one of the runs that he swim across a river!! THAT i'm not prepared for haha.. so see how lah. Anyway i will be wearing my sports bra inside so can double as bikini top? hhee....

Amendments to Genting Trip

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After various changes and all, i've decided not to go Genting with sandra and her guy friend. I'm simply not comfortable with that fellow. Need to pick him up and all. So troublesome and later in the trip got more requests how? so better not lah. I will be able to enjoy my trip more if i go myself or even with my mom.

Like i mentioned before, my main enjoyment of the trip to genting (thus the multiple journey up north) is because of the drive along the north south highway. I think i will be happiest driving up by myself, with nobody to entertain. With james, i could do that. Think only other people i can do that with are uncle and my mom. So since the whole objective of it is to make-up for the missed malaysia holiday back in june, i will do anything to ensure that i truely ENJOY it.

So for now, 3 options:
1) Travel with mom
2) Travel myself
3) Don't go at all (watch NDP lor..)

I'm seriously interested in option 2, but since my mom know about the trip now, i might not even have that option at all.

So pending still...