Unnatural High (不自然な最高)

Let me state clearly first.

No.

I've not, am not and will not do anything illegal.

(You know what I meant.. *_*)

It's just that most of my days have ended on a high note.

Well, perhaps some super low days.

It feels kind of unreal at times.

And I start to wonder if this is really my life.

I didn't notice it at first;

But then I started to do funny things in front of my 'audience'.

I didn't lose my patience at work.

I didn't get angry when there were some nasty remarks from stakeholders.

It's amazing how wonderful life is right now.

And then I start to ponder why wasn't it like this since the beginning.

I've missed out, like, so many decades of fun! Of life!

I'm probably just a crazy bitch mumbling some rubbish.

Bad Health (悪い健康)

This body of mine is not recovering. It is dragging on. Not only are my symptoms not improving, but something new has developed. It is reacting to the antibiotics which was supposed to stop my pain in my throat. Supposed to. That's right, my throat is still hurting and I have rashes all over my body! It started with just my right shoulder and navel area. After 4 pills, it has increased to cover almost all sections except my hands and feet.

Then, my ears went semi deaf! On some occasions, I can hear somewhat clearly. Most of the time, I'm listening to that deafening silence. Yup, that irritating noise from total silence. It drowns the voice of people I'm talking to. And when I tried to plug the ear with my finger, I hear weird sounds and I know it's imaged sound cause I don't hear it with my other ear. Tell me I'm going mad, please! At least that would be normal if I'm mad!

Now, I'm getting scared and irritated. Something is really wrong with my body. I seriously don't wish to go Japan in this condition. Especially not, after the incident with my family. I really, really don't want to go at all!

Sleepy Monster (モンスター )

A combination of long hours and lack of sleep has drawn out the monster that was hiding deep inside me. They are all linked. It's a cycle. Lack of sleep leads to grouchy me at workplace. Grouchy me means loads crappy encounters. Crappy encounters leads to sleeplessness. You know the rest.

I was so drained that I actually could fall into deep sleep at 3pm yesterday. I bore with it til around 9 and really slept. Woke around 9am today and that is almost 12 hours of sleep. Well, I am still dead tired! It's as if I didn't sleep at all!

Isn't this bad enough? No, my body thinks otherwise. It protested with flu! Now I have a cold headache, stuffy nose and body aches. Brain is on the verge of shutting down.

Oh Lord, please have mercy on me. I need to finish everything by tomorrow. If not, how to study for my exam in peace! *pray*

Yet Another Trip to Changi Hospital

Tingling sensation, numbness, trembling hands, cold sweat, chest pain, painful headache, shortness of breath...some of the worrying signs that forced me to head there to find out what's wrong...

Luckily, it's not stroke or heart failure. It was simply the nerves being affected. Sometimes it gets compressed by the spinal cord. So it starts with the head, the arms, then the legs will get the same problems eventually. That's what the Doc said.

So he gave me an injection for immediate relief. And asked me to rest. Of coz, I didn't since I have the thousand and one things to do at work and can't avoid coz I have to conduct it. So I'm aggravating it by doing more work at home.

I still get the signs ever now and then. The attacks come randomly. Well, hope it will end soon.

Video Sharing:
The focus this time is on Miyavi. He uses an acoustic guitar and can slap/play it at hyperspeed! Sugoi! Amazing! So effortlessly as well! I know the video's kinda old but it's worth watching since it's short anyway.

LAZY as a PIG?

First, let's take a look my laziness. I've got tons of work to do. Oh man, what's new about that? Well, I'm here typing a new blog entry. Duh! Okay, let's look at how I've 'wasted' my time. I was at my R & R. [This time at hotel intercontinental with a double room upgrade to a Premier Room, Fantastic Services!] Even after I've checked out, I went out to look at mattresses. Tedious thing to do! Luckily, the Furniture Mall at Beach Road centralized all the brands and made it easier for me. However, that meant I didn't do a single thing today. *sob*

Sleep has always been one of the most important thing to me. Not that I choose sleep over other activities like most guys do. Rather, I dislike it being disturbed. Especially on days when I'm stressed, my 'spider senses' are on high alert. I will jerk awake easily to sounds. Also, I get super grouchy when I wake. Do avoid me like mad if you are ever near me when I'm in that insane state. And do forgive me if I ever bark or give you a deadly stare in future for that matter.

To somewhat reduce the grouchiness that I have, it's been decided it's essential to get back on a proper bed. My futon is now the cause of my backaches (coz I'm a side-sleeper) and likely my killer-vibes. It been on KIV for sometime now and it's been finalized today! Funnily, I didn't even get it from the furniture mall after stampeding through all floors. Instead, Seahorse Memory Top is my destined one. It was a closed deal even before the sales lady approached me. I even got myself a memory form pillow. Finally, I'm going to get a good sleep. Looking forward to it!!

As usually, a video feature, this time round a collection of clips of my favourite guitarist playing guitar in HD format.



Love his hair. BTW, mum commented my hair has achieved the Kimura Takuya look! haha...I seriously must thank the hairstylist who cut my hair (at the $10 shop!). haha..In case you're wondering..

One of the Worst Pain..

Can you imagine your skin burning for hours? I experienced that kind of pain last night. It was freakish. I tried all ways to relieve the pain but just wouldn't go away.

How did that all happen? Come to think of it, I was pretty stupid. I am usually very cynical of such treatments but somehow, yesterday, I took my parents' advice word for word.

Applied those alcoholic ointment for sprains on cottton. Then, secured it with the ankle guard. Since I didn't want it to be stained with the ointment, some seal wrap was place over the cotton first. Now, this wasn't the first time I've use this (though not in this manner!), so I expected it to be 'hot' later on.

After many hours, it started to bug me that this pain is a little off. Stupid me didn't even bother to open and check. Instead, I went to sleep with the 'hot' sensation! An hour later, I woke to excruciating pain which was now screaming for attention!

I was shocked (in my semi-asleep state) to see my skin had become rotten! Swollen, burning and some parts have rotted away. Goodness, gracious me! The shock woke me up, my brain was thinking of all available options.

It was so painful that seeing a doctor, who would most likely poke my ankle, is not an option! So I tried to go back to sleep, hoping the pain would subside but it didn't. I couldn't position my ankle in any way to feel comfortable.

I didn't know what to do except to apply generous amount of antiseptic cream non-stop. It kept melting and I had to re-apply many times. The pain just didn't go away. I know applying heat would hurt even more. However, cold air also didn't help but made it worse.

So I had no choice but to take the painkillers which I've got for my dislocated tailbone (that's another story). After half an hour, my sensors finally stopped sending pain signals to my brain and I was able to fall into deep sleep.

Now, my ankle is still hurting and as if it's not enough, I have burnt/infected skin. Yes, it adds a whole new pattern to the already 'tattooed' left leg of mine (from the roller-balding experience 2 years ago). The feeling of pain is indeed deeply embedded in my soul now.

I think the only other lengthy pain experience I've had was when I extracted my wisdom teeth on local anesthesia. It felt like I was being saw into pieces while being painfully conscious of it. That was more of the fear than pain. Now, this...this has set a new pain record... which I hope / pray would never be upset.