I suddenly recalled how i mentioned to dor (infact a few times before) that i will always get emotional whenever i see an ambulance, especially when it's siren is on. My grandpa had a heart attack and we called for an ambulance. The ambulance took a long time to arrive almost 20minutes i think. I was really pissed that time (primary 5 then). Heartattack victims need to be attended to within a short period of time to up their survivor rate. So my grandpa died a few days later. I would never forget not being able to see him and we received a call in the middle of the night and i just knew he had died. i was too young to enter the ICU in Changi Hospital so i didn't get to see him for the last time.
My grandpa was the only person who loved me the most and protected me whenever i got misunderstood and in trouble. He shielded me from my mother and other aunties everytime. I loved him very much too because i know he's always on my side regardless of anything. Thus after all these years, he's always at the top of my most loved list. (btw the 2nd place is for my 1st hamster 'boyboy' - forever in my heart and never forgotten) That is also why i always teared whenever an ambulance passes by.
However i've noticed that recently i've not been like that. And i've seen a lot of ambulances with their sirens wailing away passed by me. So i finally figured out why today. It's because someone else has replaced my grandpa on my list. That person is James. I've mentioned before to him about my grandpa and how nobody can take his place. He has finally done it by pampering me so much and so giving towards me. He has surpast all the sacrifies my grandpa made. Thus earning a place above my grandpa.
That may be another reason why i'm taking such a long time to get over it. If it takes years for me to get over my grandpa, i think i will takes many more years to get over him too. That is until someone else replaces it.
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